Grumble

1st things first.. That LUSH dress came and guess what? IT DOESN’T FIT!!!!! Of course it doesn’t, why the hell would I think it would?? Fucking bastard. Going to see if my mum can take it in.. It looks HOT too! Grrr If anyone thinks skinny is a good thing I tell you now you ILL… sick in the fucking head! Lumpy is best!

Oh and if that’s not enough to annoy me (as im struggling to find shops that sell clothes that fit me) I’m having a nightmare friend situation! I really try not to moan about my friends, but im seriously thinking of having it out with one of mine….

Iv not seen them properly since the middle of August, and iv really been trying to make an effort, texting every few days about a TV programme we jointly watch religiously, with no reply’s. So I text them (around 9pm) last night asking if they wanted a pizza Saturday night and a catch up. No text back yet! That’s just fucking rude is it not? I don’t know why I bother? This is a friend I’v had for many, many years, gone through a lot together (they were a total rock when I split with Carl) and now they can’t be arsed to text back – even to make up an excuse? Im sorry! But if I’ve needed a friend in the past year its been these past few months, when iv been getting more and more depressed about issues, most importantly my weight, and they seem to have sacked me off. Im actually rather angry about this.. Are we not adults? And if iv done something to said person should they not have the balls to tell me? Anyway…. To make matters worse iv my date’s let me down tonight… lol okay she genuinely had to work but one could so easily be paranoid?!

Anyway… tonight so far chatting to wiggy on msn after making a tea of crispy chicken, veg and savoury rice (yum) Im going to watch Vincent at 9.
Tomorrow is shitty Tuesday at work, and I think im going to ED to get some books from Fiona (so be nice to me guys – or do you play tricks on the newbie?)

A very grumpy Alison x